Nigerian Screenwriter Michael Ogah has discloed that he once thought about committing suicide as a child
In a post he made on Instagram, Michael shared details on how he was backward in class as a growing child and pressures from parents and teachers moved him to want to take his life.
“As a child I had sad eyes, and I cried a lot. I remember writing a letter to God one night prep.Soon after I excused myself from class and folded the letter into a paper airplane I sent to the sky.In the letter I asked God to make me, not the most intelligent kid in my class, but fairly okay (because I had been coming last in class for too long and I was tired of feeling like a failure).The next morning, I was sweeping the back of my classroom when I saw my letter in the grass. It was all crumpled and beaten by rain. ‘God never got my letter, He never got it. I will never be intelligent,’ I wept.All that is in the past now, but I can’t help seeing my younger self in children of nowadaysI hear parents say to their children, ‘Why won’t you just be like your brother or your sister’ and my heart breaks.I think back to times I sat on the floor in my mother’s kitchen as a ten year old with a knife to my stomach.I wanted to end harsh words thrown at me; words like “Why are you so weak?” Or “ Why are you so dumb?”When I started writing I wanted to portray the beauty of weakness, and to date I don’t care what anybody thinks about it.Happy new month, everyone, and to parents in the house, please be kind with your words; children are fragile, handle them with care.”
Asked whether he later became intelligent, he responded:
“I had a phase where all seemed perfect. I think it taught me that hard times don’t last, and some times it is all about how I perceive what I am going through.”